So, last night I decided on today's to-do list. It wasn't much, I can't physically do much, but it was attainable and made me feel like I would be making a huge contribution to my family.
By midnight I knew it wouldn't be getting done, by me anyway. The pain in my leg had been niggly all day and it was getting out of control. I tried to go to bed to rest it, which only caused my back to go into spasm. I ended up with a dose of rescue medicine. I hate taking it, I know that yes it helps, but it's going to leave me with a medication hangover for most of the following day. My night was super restless, with hours of crap tv, Candy Crush and Kindle reading.
This morning, I tried to get on with it, but just getting downstairs was enough to reduce me to tears. And so I sit here with a heat pad, on the sofa, with my feet up writing this and all the people around me are yet again picking up the slack, doing not only their own chores but my to-do list too.
I feel indebted, completely useless, in pain and most worryingly of all for someone who prides herself on organisation, I feel not in control of the situation. Some days I really do hate the health issues that I've got .......
By midnight I knew it wouldn't be getting done, by me anyway. The pain in my leg had been niggly all day and it was getting out of control. I tried to go to bed to rest it, which only caused my back to go into spasm. I ended up with a dose of rescue medicine. I hate taking it, I know that yes it helps, but it's going to leave me with a medication hangover for most of the following day. My night was super restless, with hours of crap tv, Candy Crush and Kindle reading.
This morning, I tried to get on with it, but just getting downstairs was enough to reduce me to tears. And so I sit here with a heat pad, on the sofa, with my feet up writing this and all the people around me are yet again picking up the slack, doing not only their own chores but my to-do list too.
I feel indebted, completely useless, in pain and most worryingly of all for someone who prides herself on organisation, I feel not in control of the situation. Some days I really do hate the health issues that I've got .......
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